Usually we are very careful with our behavior. We do our best to be good and nice. But then, there are those awkward moments when the worst from within us, no longer hidden and contained inside, just comes out. Most of the time it happens in relation to those who are most close and dear to us – those who actually matter the most to us.
Firstly, it is the result of being caught off-guard. When our programmed behavior is surprised by some action and so we react wrongly. And mostly, it is the response from the base (animal)-instinct. It is the realm of fear, insecurity, inner-wounds, etc.
Secondly, it can also be the reaction to things that we do not like. It is like a personal code that we try to live by in order to cope and survive in this world. That when something that we do not like happens to us, we make sure that everyone around knows our dislike and the resulting frustration.
In the first reason that we saw, since it is based on our being caught off-guard we may have it in us to apologize. The second reason, on the other hand, being a law that we have formed for ourselves to live by, we may end up justifying ourselves even for all the wrong reactions from our part.
The error in all this is more in our attempting to blame the external factors for the way we behaved. Rather, we should be able to acknowledge that what came out did come out from within us. The problem is inside us!
However, the good news is that – God sees all that and yet He loves us so much. Jesus Christ accepts us as we are and He transforms us by His love.
The much needed transformation may or may not be quickly received. Nevertheless, when we become the vessels that contain the love of God, our life will become a different story altogether. So let us take time every now and then to receive the love of God within us. Let us allow God to love us – that we should take time to cherish God’s love for us and then we are also nourished and cured by His eternal love.
May God continue to work in us, transforming us by His unconditional love, and conforming us into His own likeness and image.