Ministry cannot be a substitute for a misplaced relationship with God. We cannot accomplish anything that is pleasing to God without being in communion with Him through Jesus Christ our Lord.
He is the vine and we are the branches. And when the branch is wholly dependent on the vine for its very sustenance and also for the realization of its potential, then all that the vine has is freely provided to it.
The demon possessed man, in the country of the Gerasenes, was delivered by Jesus and he wanted to go along with Jesus. “He begged Him that he might be with Him” (Mark 5:18). But Jesus, “did not permit him but said to him, ‘Go home to your friends and tell them how much the Lord has done for you, and how He has had mercy on you.” (Mark 5:19)
He was delivered by Jesus. And his orientation, focus, and dependence are on Jesus and Him alone. Here, though it sounds as if Jesus is sending him away – we may rather see that he was commissioned and empowered. This then is one of those disciples who are called to stand in contrast to the disciples who were called to be with Him.
When our orientation is toward Jesus and we focus on Him in total dependence, then He may call us to be with Him. And is that not the greatest privilege that we may have in this life. Or He may send us to accomplish some task that He entrusts us. Even then is that also not the greatest privilege that we may have in this life – for He is with us all the time.
The exhortation for you is that – don’t focus on what you can do for Jesus, but focus on Jesus Himself. And let Him determine what you have to do. You may be called to just be with Him or you may just as well be called to do something for Him.